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boo i think i've been conned.
apparently this pic is taken by a 5mp camera.STUPID CAMERA PHONE TECHNOLOGY.
but is ok lah as long as its a nokia, i will forgive and embrace bcos nokia is the god of phones.
and they have big squishy comfy buttons to press! :)
(ok and fine, admittedly just wanted to show off my chio ass nails)
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and the door just kiap-ed my hand.
bruised.
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OH OH OHHHH AND OMG A PEEPING TOM ACTUALLY STRUCK AT ONE OF THE EVENTS I WAS AT!
DAMN DRAMA.
and the stupid cock, seriously, if you want to commit a crime, do it somewhere where you can quickly blend into the crowd and disappear rite.
this indian fella went to peep at this lady AND LIKE 98% OF THE PEOPLE THERE WERE CHINESE.
hello, you will obviously stick out like a damn sore thumb RITE.
the stupidity of some people astound me.
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ONE YEAR ON
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i just realised its been exactly one year AND I'M STILL ALIVE!
havent thrown myself off any building yet or ODed on alcohol (was damn close to doing so when i stupidly mixed it w panadol tho haha... unintentionally OF COURSE) AND YES I THINK I CAN FINALLY SAY IM OUT OF MY QLC!
was ass fuckingly diff to drag myself outta it but at least i can honestly truly say i think i'm actually happy.
my self worth restored, and passion in life back in place, i'm back to my usual crazy slightly ADD (according to ash&liz) self. havent been called the energizer bunny for YEARS (yes and i take it as a compliment. beggars cant be choosers).
so manymanymanymanymany things to do and not enough time :))))))))
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and yet here i am still playing sims on a sat evening, procrastinating even tho im sup to be at the game in half and hour... and really really wanting to pontang cos someone asked me out for a hot date. rarrrr but cannot. life too complicated as it is.
MUST. STOP. HAVING. ANYTHING. TO. DO. WITH. DICKS.
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to you
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i'm sorry if i misled you.
i finally stopped deceiving myself and blaming you, but instead, put myself in your shoes.
and yes, despite everything that i've said, i can see why you're hurt and why you're choosing to do what you're doing.
i have no idea how to tell you this face to face since you refuse to even look at me, but maybe you'll see this here and realise that i wished things wld have turned out differently.
maybe i wasn't clearer in the beginning, maybe my actions contradicted my words.
but at the end of the day, i know it is my fault.
i'm sorry.
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OMG I KNEW IT.
SURE KENA KARMA AFTER MY HORRIBLE POST YEST.
SLIPPED AND LANDED ON MY PALM AND NOW CAN'T DECIDE IF ITS SPRAINED OR JUST BRUISED BUT WHATEVER IT IS IT HURTS LIKE A MF.
yeah ok time to be a better person.
i hope everyone who is experiencing pain and suffering (even those the assholes that were horrid to me) will feel better soon.
wow i suddenly feel so magnanimous and forgiving, maybe this is how buddha felt.
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Hi, my name Charlotte and I'm...
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1) An alcoholic
2) A workaholic
3) A mj addict
4) A tv junkie
5) A really really bad person*
*new this week!
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im just gonna take my chances and be evil and mean and revel in other ppls pain and suffering for the time being.
oh the sweet sweet taste of vengeance.
if i was just that 2 levels more evil, i'd man up and weed the fuckers out myself and laugh at their faces.
but think thats abit too OTT.
elegant vengeance.
thats what this is about.
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i dont like losing.
when i was and others were winning, i was so seething with hatred that i cld have poisoned even the most cherubic cherubim with my death glares of malicious hatred, for i did truly believe that god was punishing me for all the bad things i've done in my life.
but since now i've managed to convince myself that the big man up there is the ambivalent sort who just sat back and watched his creations run amok for his amusement, i doubt he really gives a crap anymore whether or not i'm (or for that matter, all the war torn countries/starving children/etc other people who have it much worse off than me are) suffering.
things like tsunamis and other assorted natural disasters are a manifestation of MOTHER NATURE, not so much god trying to remind us of his existence.
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so yes, onward from my drunken ramblings, simple point is that i believe in karma.
what goes around comes around.
with every action is an opposite and equal reaction.
simple physics.
so i feel it is justifiable to be delighted at other peoples pain-
esp those who try to take smth that wasn't theirs and it was taken away from them in the end,
and those who fucked up and realised it.
thats the worst me thinks.
knowing that you made a mistake.
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am not even sure whats the point of this entire post since it just proves to myself and everyone else that i'm a terrible person.
but i have a fucking horrid headache so this is just my way of consoling myself.
THAT OTHER PPL ARE SUFFERING MORE THAN ME.
AND THAT I WIN.
MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
SUCK SHIT LOSERS.
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ps: mmmm but cannot lay it down leh, still feel i need to get back at them.
see its ppl like me that causes all these stupid battles and world wars cos out pride is wounded.
MUST. BE. BETTER. PERSON.
after i revel abit more in my victory though :)
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MY WEEKEND
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SCREW YOU FOR NOT TELLING ME AND GETTING ANGRY WITH ME COS I DIDNT KNOW.
donno how long you're going to stay angry w me for, but till then, shall not speak to you.
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halloween was good- i worked through it.
had another working weekend at barclays, and will have another one this week for another bmw roadshow at millenia.
which makes it again, 19 days straight technically going without break.
woohoo.
have decided from now onwards, am going to make the photog take photos for me at events cos am too lazy to do it myself. and plus his cam quality is so much better than mine. and so i'll actually look like i have a life.
like this one here-
a really awesome photo from some charity golf event where our v own beloved mm (*edit SM) goh was a participant. and he gave us food cos he said we look hungry. go pap!
back to werkz.
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haven't needed to do this for a long while
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OH GOD SO WASTED LAST NITE APPARENTLY I PUKED ON MY BED.
APPARENTLY COS YOU TOLD ME BUT I BELIEVE YOU COS I CAN STILL SMELL IT AT 10A, IN THE MORNING.
last thing i rmb was the awesomely bad chocolate drink and after that, nothing.
traumatising and horrific, and totally reminding me of the movie "the hangover".
HASN'T HAPPENED IN ALMOST 2 YEARS, WON'T BE HAPPENING ANYMORE ANYTIME SOON. i swear to god. and all his angels.
(and im sorry to pengyu, afiq and ESPECIALLY TO AISHAH WHO I APPARENTLY WAS TRYING TO WEDGIE TO THE GROUND, and brian.... yeah lets just leave it at sorry and not what i did to make me sorry hah.)
ok sorry for finally getting to a level5 (WASTED OUT OF MY MIND) and i wont let it happen again.
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i just found out i was lied to.
for like the 30millionth time.
i wonder if the other people know that they were conned as well.
really hope they do cos i dont wanna be the only one thats hurt by this whole debacle (yes ego is bruised like a banana jostled arnd at the back of a fruit van. early morning metaphors cannot make it i know hah).
he said he'll settle it, but have no idea how he's going to bring himself to.
we'll just see lor.
see whether the 30millionth times the charm tho honestly, am very quickly losing my last shreds of patience.
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DRINK DRANK DRAMAAAAAA
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omg i love that blogger is working in office! yet another distraction from work tsktsk, ash will not be happy.
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hate when ppl say that im drunk and realised that since diff ppl have diff tell tale signs of level of intoxication, have to come up with a PERSONALISED ("Charlotte Drink Drank But Is Not Quite Drunk... Yet") 5 tier system-->
type of high
tell tale signs
recommended actions
1) buzzed (yay prosecco!)
happy high/ talk and laugh louder than usual
ok to continue
2) high
silly high/ possibility of swaying when walking
proceed to drink but with caution
3) drunk
lame "cock talk" high (yes double entendre noted and intended)/ might trip but will catch myself before i fall
time to stop drinking. seriously.
4) gone
retarded "only shit talk" high/ stumbling, high probability of dropping phone in toilet/ randomly physically assaulting ppl/ emotional outbursts/ may puke dependent on whether anything was consumed before drinking
GET THE JUG OUTTA MY HAND COS I CANT DO IT MYSELF!
5) wasted
too drunk to talk high/lying on floor puking, have been known to attempt to throw myself out of a moving cab before/ extreme emotional outbursts
prob too drunk to feed myself
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PEOPLE, LISTEN, HIGH DRUNK AND WASTED ARE HIGHLY CONTEXTUAL!
many a times have i gotten into alot of trouble for drinking too much, cos im told "dont get wasted" and to me, as long as im not lying comatose on the ground or puking, im not wasted.
so hopefully more ppl will see this and realise that
1 & 2 CANNOT BE CONSIDERED DRUNK,
AND 3 & 4 CANNOT BE CONSIDERED WASTED.
VERY DIFF THINGS PEOPLE!
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admittedly though, my worst habit is the inability to stop drinking when i start cos the more i drink, the less i taste and the thirstier i get. lethal combi. must start giving out forms to the staff at boulevard so they'll know when to stop serving me drinks (they have a penchant for making waterfalls and kiwi long islands for me for some strange reason) or throw a bucket of water at me so that i'll sober down.
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k time for boulevard to test my theory.
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