ANNOYYYYYYYYYYYYEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
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ok like uber super fucking irritated.
honestly.
i miss being attached simply cos being single makes everyone and everything so damn ass fucking complicated.
want to be your good friend also, as long as you have a schlong, kena we have smth going on/im loose/hes slutty etc.
best part is if i acted the exact same way if i were attached, ppl wld think im being friendly SO HOW COME IT DOESNT APPLY WHEN IM SINGLE?!
im gonna stop going out and meeting guys.
no even better, im gonna turn butch.
then ppl will just think im being brotherly.
i swear to god, im this close to paying someone to be my fucking bf.
i miss being invisible.
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AND STOP FUCKING ASKING ME TO LIE FOR YOU PLEASE!
if i dont need to cover my ass, why do you keep trying to do so COS YOURE TRYING TO PROTECT ME?!
then when we end up telling different stories, it makes me look damn bad.
KINDA BACKFIRES ON ME RITE.
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aiyah angsty like fuck lah honestly.
and now i have to go settle some political bullshit which i unintentionally got myself mixed into.
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I NEED A GODDAMN BF PLEASE.
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WTF
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im embroiled in another he said she said web of lies and excuses.
annoyed, but thank god i dont really like these ppl to begin with.
they can hate my pert little ass for all i care cos theyre the ones who twisted my words and im better than that.
im better than showdowns, confrontations and namecalling.
i cant give a flying rats ass :)
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btw PINEAPPLE WHATS YOUR MSN? haha random i know. hope youre healing ok.
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OVERWHELMED
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i used to mope im too damn free.
now, im moping that im too busy.
honestly, wtf.
in the period of 1 week, i went from hoping that each day would just end at 12hours to needing a day to be 48hours long.
i just got offered a full time job which will incl weekends, doing events for the like of bmw, canon and f1.
i just got offered a full time position for (higher paid) dealing on mon, wed, fri and sat nites.
i have already committed myself to (lower pair) dealing somewhere else on tue, fri and sat nites.
i have already committed myself to a pr position, tue, thurs and fri nites.
i have already committed myself to 5 students for tuition. and its their o levels so i cant drop them.
and i have that clothes venture w sarah.
on one hand, the 3 jobs with absolutely no future has the greatest money making potential.
and the full time job has probably the most future but least money making potential.
and tuition, well, im just committed cos im awesome like that.
and the clothes thing makes me pittance but i'd do it simply cos its sarah.
so i donno.
im just wondering how many hours of sleep i can survive on everyday till sep.
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i spent the last 12hours playing 20/40 mj. i won barely enough to cover my cab fare home. fucking student rate. i miss my 30/60half rates.

the last few days have been pretty mad as well. from fri to sunday, in 60hours, i slept for 3hours and was worked 36hours.

highlights of the weekend included my $80 all in hand with paul which i swiftly lost, learning to deal for omaha, and some job related nonsense.
and danny :) so cute. hurhur.
(if you manage to read this, congrats, means you found my blog, i added this just for you lor.)

i went home on sunday nite exhausted as hell, only to have my friend call me and bug me to go cuscaden, of which i conveniently replied, "ill only go drink if you come pick me up lor." lo and behold, 20min later, just as my head hit the pillow, i recieved a call from them "eh, we're outside your hse, come out now." i didnt have much choice so we ended up at the siglap coffee shop playing all sorta retarded card games and being ah pekish and drinking tiger.

and that was my weekend.

and i had fun.

i love my jobs to bits, whjich is seriously awesome cos i actually get paid to have fun. haha and yes, partially blogging so i can gloat abt the fact that idont have a full time job :))

but total lack of sleep at this point of time so no energy to make this post exciting. just trying to do smth to pass time as nick makes panckaes for breakfast.

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Quotes to live by
Dead Like Me S01E01
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"Interests begets expectation begets disappointment.
So the key to avoiding disappointment, is to avoid interest."
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"I also don't have have alot of interest in being a good person or a bad person, and from what i can tell, either way you're screwed.
Bad people are punished by society's law,
and good people... are punished by murphy's law.
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my birthday present to myself this year is gonna be a huge ass framed poster of Murphy's Law just to remind myself that "if it looks too good to be true, it is".
but i guess now that i've actually accepted the fact that my life somehow seems to follow the principles my good friend murphy came up with, i'm alot happier cos at least i EXPECT things to screw up and thing NOT to go my way.
if i had to choose btw cynicism and disappointment, give me glass half empty anyday man.
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CLEAR YOUR OLD CRAP FOR MONEY!
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HELLO ALL.
as part of the "earn more money cos i am poor" campaign, heres sarah and my new money making venture (ok granted, sarahs the brains, brawn and boss of the whole thing, im merely the clothes horse and saikang warrior.)
we started off by selling off her old clothes and decided since everyone has some crap worth some money but are too lazy to do it, WE'LL DO IT FOR YOU!
check out the existing store here and for more details here on how to sell your unwanted stuff for $$.
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or if you just have too much money to throw away on frivolous pleasures like clothes, look out for the next collection next sunday :)
dont ask abt the hair. its apparently the in hairstyle this season.
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AWESOMENESSSSSSSSSSSS
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astrology shld be made into a hard science
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AND I FINALLY GOT IT!
whoever told me it doesnt really hurt shld be shot. honestly. it hurt like a mofo and i almost passed out a few times. maybe im just a wuss, BUT ANT BITES DO NOT FEEL LIKE ACID ON SKIN.
oh and thanks friend, for going w me to make sure i didnt pass out from the whole thing haha.
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i got suckered into buying a new camcorder which CLAIMS it can take pics as good as any other normal cam, but kinda regretting the $700 since photo quality seems seriously lacking. heres one of the best pics.
thinking whether i shld just give up and buy a new camera. (ok yes, im just using this chance to be narcissistic too haha. busted.)
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