HAIRPYNEZ
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today is turning out to be a veryvery good day :)
shall go bask in my golden glow of happyness for awhile more (blogging is sucha sad way of spending my happy hours leh).
YAYNESS, RAINBOWS AND GLITTERFAIRYDUSTBUNNIES!
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fortyfivekilosandcounting
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dont you just hate it when you go through life being told that you're "above average" weight wise and that you'd look good if you lost some weight?
i've just found out whats worse.
losing all that "above average" weight, and people telling you that you looked better when you were "above average".
i mean seriously guys, what gives?
but ok fine, not that im complaining cos the 5kg that i lost in the last month didn't even involve any hard work, though i do have to say the only fats that i miss are those that used to fill up my bra.
now all thats left is alot of empty space :(
i guess i finally have a legit reason to stuff my face.
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25/12/2008, 4.47pm
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good god, christmas is almost over!
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yay to e33 (thanks aisyah, i'm now loud and proud to admit that i'm a cheap drunk too) which brought christmas eve to a fantastic close.
kinda happyish that all this festive cheer nonsense will be ending soon since i wasn't all that cheery in the first place and now that its finally almost over, everyone will go back to being blah and normal and angst ridden and i'll be happy.
misery loves company :)
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dinner then drinks later on.
maybe ill finally get my mistletoe kiss :D
(now all i need is to find some goddamn mistletoe.... rarrr why dont they sell such things at supermarkets?!)
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"KILL OFF ALL MY DEMONS, ROY, AND MY ANGELS MAY DIE TOO."
-jessie, transsiberian, 2008
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urgh, you know you're watching way too many movies when you start quoting lines from everywhere. but isnt that sucha pretty line :) basically, just tell whoever is trying to change you "for the better" to screw off.
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and its christmas eve!
falalalalalalalala~
fake happy only :|
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strange how since i'm not really all that eggcited for christmas this yr, new yrs gonna be a big ass deal for me. i'm already making all these new yr resolutions that i know i'll nv keep but am still gonna try anyway. can't wait for 2008 to be overrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
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oldPHOTOS!
from logicmills' game's nite
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and christmas at lynette's :)
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i'm semi in love with abhi's cam. think i'm gonna get a dslr soonish (like when i actually have money). till then, i'll just be content reading up on photography, stealing my dad's eos40D and
being abhi's official photogirl.
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ohhhhhhhhh and i finally got down to watching ever after and amelie (thanks to sarah, cameo&bern... i know you guys read this!).
sigh, i love happy shows :)
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zomg.
i just got my own office account and official email! eggcited. i feel so grown up :)
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kena
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EH SERIOUSLY, WHY DOES KARMIC CRAP ALWAYS HAVE TO SEEM TO COME BY THE TRUCKLOADS AH?
think my hotmail and ebay accounts has been hacked into so prob gonna have to shut it down.
if i've added you on msn recently (and my name is simon or smth) ITS NOT ME.
i hate my life :(
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--Professor Barnhardt, The Day the Earth Stood Still, 2008
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the day the earth stood still
stands somewhere between corny and cliched, but at least it made for some interested conversation on the way home. nonetheless, my stand is that the aliens should have just blown up the world cos humans are stupid anyway. yeah sure, we'll change for now. maybe for a generation or so. but people forget. and we'll manage to fuck up the world again anyway. such is human nature. they should have just gotten it over and done with.
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one particular exchange struck me tho, "It’s only at the precipice that people evolve," so says the brilliant "altruistic biologist" whose role is to convince keanu/klatu to not destroy the world, justification being that people never see the need to change until something bad is about to happen. so now that their invaded by aliens, they'll see the need to change and definitely stop destroying mother earth. but keanu/klatu says something like "no, we've given you chances and you still refuse to change" and jennifer connelly goes all "but we can! but you need to show us how to!". Sigh such desperation, such familiarity. but keanu/klatu is all "no, too bad, too late muthafuckas", but yeah obviously the world doesnt get destroyed thats why we're still here.
i guess that just goes to show people are stupid in general, only realising the need to change when their met with finality. ok fine maybe not stupid, but complacent. the belief that the world would regenerate to meet our needs forever was only recently shattered with the onset of signs that the world is disintegrating before our very eyes. thus the onslaught of "save the environment" propganda.
but at least gaia can still be saved bcos we KNOW how to, its just whether we want to or not. what would happen if we didnt know how to? do we still deserve punishment? maybe if keanu/klato came down earlier and taught the earthlings a trick or 2 about recycling, i'm sure he wouldn't have had to end the human race to save the earth. but nooooo, they chose to just kill us all without warning.
stupid selfish aliens, bet they were just finding some excuse to take over our planet.
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happy go lucky
oooh and heres the show that i was talking about.
its a pretty good piece, where the protagonist poppy goes about generally dealing with the crap life throws at her with laughter, doing whatever she can to make it as unshitty as possible since its either that, or feel dark and depressed.
pretty inspiring considering the existensial funk i'm going through.
very inspired to take up trampolining classes too. anyone interested?
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im damn high.
my hands are shaking.
im laughing hysterically.
my eyes are glazing over.
im having heart palpitations.
and im singing mambo songs in the office!
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drank red bull cos i had tuition at 8(freaking)am and now at work. woohoo 10.30 man.
and its weird cos im insanely over the moon happy.
last time i felt this way was erm... when i was happy? haha suck balls. my brain not working.
i rmb how i used to feel like this all the time when i was way younger. growing up sucks shit.
fizzy redbull makes me dizzy whizzy! :D
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zoukout pictos!
(and yes i know im going overboard with like 1001 photos BUT I LIKE SO HOW HUH HUH HUH WANNA FIGHT ISSIT)
shit im going mad.
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giff,sarah,me,aisyah&OURBESTFRIENDFLOAT
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giff doing HIS THANG.
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MAJOR BLEURGH.
cute as hell but still bluerghish. haha.
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dancedance
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emo one korner
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the cam lens is damn dirty
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whoopee
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firewerkz
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and my darling for (1/4 of) the nite :)
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ok high wearing off.
but iz ok, will have redbull for lunch! wings!
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just watched this movie "happy go lucky" and i feel even more depressed.
HOW COME SOME PEOPLE CAN BE SO HAPPYYYYYYYYY.
urgh and the worse part is i think i used to be like that :(
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oh but at least zoukout was surprisingly nubbad.
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PLANb
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since australia isn't happening anytime soon (damn the visa problems), we shall move on to planB which is simply,
MOVE OUT.
3yrs of hall has spoilt me silly, so much so that im now willing to pay the exorbitant price for freedom.
its impossible to grow up under my parents roof.
ANYONE HAVE A ROOM AVAIL FOR RENT?
(or lemme stay free also can hurhur)
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funtimes
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i hate the little kiddies who have overtaken zouk. esp after the exams (yes i used to be one of them so dont blahblah double standard this that k. STFU MWAHAHAHA.)
but other than that it was all good :)
haven't had that much crazy ass fun for almost 2years.
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my eyebags are the size of teabags.
punny. geddit? hurhur. .
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more on the crazy logicthrills&spilss weekend when abhhi gets them up on fb.
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nua and laziii
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i feel strangely at ease with life right now.
think that i've just felt so sian of feeling sian that i can't feel sian anymore (yes even i think that sounded ridiculous, but hey it worked rite?)
gonna try and take a break from the booze today.
fuck, after all the jagershots and what seems like endless amts of redbull, i went home at 5am and cldnt sleep properly, being intermittently awakened by random birds, construction sounds and strange caffeine induced dreams. ended up actually reaching office at 12pm which is ridiculously early for me. will upload photos of the semi crazy nite when xiu decides shes free enough to post them somewhere for me to steal :)
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and i'm bored.
sitting in office listening to office politics and trying to decide whether i feel like travelling to town to watch movie.
lazy.
think i need to sleep.
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OMG NEW HAPPY SONG TO BE PLAYED ON REPEAT
LARRIKIN LOVE- HAPPY AS ANNIE
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dear god
(or whichever mighty omniscient being that might be present up there)
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thank you for my friends who've been there every single day to get me through this period.
thank you for showing me that i'm not the only person going through shit and that my life in fact has been more charmed than many.
thank you for bestowing my friends (but hmmm... why not me?) the wisdom of forward lookingness and logicality that i've somehow lost.
thank you for making me the reasonably understanding and empathetic person that i am so that i may forgive the trespasses against me.
for without all that, i'd honestly be off the roof and sailing through the air, destroying the wonderful creation of life and breath that you have allowed to come about in us.
and finally, dear god, please help me not regret advice that i take, and the decisions that i make.
amen.
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another tuesday post
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tis' strange how i always seem to be blogging on tuesdays.
but yes for once, THIS IS A GOOD TUESDAY :)
for once, i woke up without nightmares and had a good solid chunk of 9 hours of sleep (albeit to silence about 7 calls. URGH HATE PEOPLE CALLING BEFORE 2PM. JUST COS YOURE AWAKE DOESN'T MEAN I AM YOU KNOW.) for once, there wasn't the immediate urge to go back to sleep and hope to nv wake up. and for once, i didn't dread facing another long tedious day.
whoopee for me :)
insane week ahead. GOING ROCKCLIMBING LATER! and drinks after.
and more drinks on wed (mambooooo), hopefully thurs (rockers supper?), maybe fri (talkcocksingsongdrinkalot back in hall BUT lazy. must stay over on dblk coach.) definitely sat (games nite!), and sun (logicmills gathering) as well.
monday's public hol will be spent recovering from all the accumlated hungovers i think.
but nonetheless,
SUCK THAT YOU DISGUSTING SCUMBAG.
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