JAN09 in retrospect
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good lord, when i said that 2008 was bad, i obviously wasn't prepared for january 2009.
ok maybe it wasn't bad BAD, but it was just def damn unexpected.
everything thats happened since the very first day of 2009 has caught me off guard, and not necessarily in a good way.
fine not everythings bad (in fact, some rather fantastical things have happened), but not exactly in the way i'd ever think things wld turn out.
every single weekend brings some new, exciting issue for me to deal with.
though i may be having the last laugh in one of my many issues, its not really a laugh, more like a grunt or snort cos im not able to fully enjoy from the laughing cos of my other issues.
rarrrrrrrrrrr.
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meh i realise i talk in circles.
i shld stop being cryptic since ppl cant be bothered to read abt stuff they dont understand anyway.
all the better i guess, being judged is smth i so CANNOT deal with now.
AND I AM FUCKING FLATULANT-ish, UNABLE TO FART AND CONSTIPATED AS HELL.
wahlau as if im not depressed enough, my one remaining pleasure in life has been stolen from me.
im sorry for the unnecessary info abt my gastro-intestinal issues but REALLY ITS MAKING SO DAMN ANNOYED I NEED TO VENT.
please feb, please be kinder, more boring and mundane.
i think my heart cannot handle such shit anymore, or more specifically, my stomach.
i either have a stomach ulcer, tumour or WORMS.
maybe that'll explain my weight loss.
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ok off to deal again- in more ways than one.
(heh more crypticism, go figure.)
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ive gone from feeling apologetic and misunderstood to indignant and maligned.
dammit sometimes i care to much.
but not this time ok, seriously, i got bigger issues with in my life to deal with than to be concerned abt my involvement in an issue that i know i have done no wrong in.
happy cny btw.
hopefully sucky karma will translate into damn good gambling luck.
fingers crossed :)
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MISUNDERSTOODED
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i just got myself embroiled in a big convulated, bizzare mess.
really wanna dig myself out of it and redeem myself cos i honestly didnt do anything wrong AND ITS ALL A BIG MISUNDERSTANDING! but i shall go with denise on this one and not do anything for now. according to her, my spate of bad luck will just extend itself into this as well and im just gonna be digging a hole to jump into.
knowing the psyche of the involved (i can say this cos ive been there, done that before) someone might stumble on this post (hello!) and if you know what issue im going on abt here, i wanna say that im sorry for the misunderstanding. please dont hate me cos ive really got nth to do with this whole issue!
erm ok that sounded pretty lame. but im desperate lah ok. hate being in situations like these where im misunderstooded. what if i kena voodoo doll-ed rite. or someone really takes me up on my last blog post offer and kills me? rarrrrr. ive decided i dont really wanna die yet. i wanna have kids first.
ok rambling.
bye.
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BLAH LIFE
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ok can i just start off by saying young kids really irk me? wait who am i even asking permission from. its my goddamn blog. SO YES, YOUNG KIDS REALLY IRK ME. young as in the 88'-91' batch. i think its the education system and the possession of technology abit too young has made them into... irksome young things. for lack of a better word. ok not all of them annoy me, but a select few. like seriously a SELECT SLUTTY FEW. ok im done ranting.
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btw i hate my life. anyone hate me enough to murder me, go ahead, nows your chance. i promise i wont die and come back and haunt you. just make sure its a painless and/or quick death. like bonk me over the head hard enough to make me unconscious then push me off a building.
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and i hate having choices. yes im an ungrateful cunt so screw you too.
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HAJI LANE PHOTOWHORING
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been fevered up for the past 5days AND I HAVE NOW A GODDAMN HORRIFIC RASH COVERING BOTH LEGS.
looks like chicken pox gone bad. and abit mad.
thank god they're not itchy or anything.
apparently they appear when really high fevers start to subside.
well done.
so now im well and can go out and play but must play in long skirts/pants in case ppl start thinking im diseased.
whoopee.
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oooooooooh and even more karmic stardust nonsense has befallen me.
i guess when you engage in so many unsavoury activities, its only inevitable that one day, things are just gonna come back and bite you in the ass.
in a much bigger, badder and WAAAAY more painful than imaginable method than you ever thought possible.
time to cleanse out my life i say.
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nothing much beens happening thus the lack of blogging.
been sick the last few days which is an absolute bitch cos not only do i constantly have hot and cold spells, theres also the dizziness. urgh.
and i just missed 2 driving lessons today. $120 leh. tragic.
but i guess its better than losing my life when i faint at the steering wheel haha.
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FOTOZ
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sentosa :)
havent been there in goddamn ages.
went and came back still slightly looking like a bleached whale tho.
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CHRISTMAS EVE
stupid fake snow at zouk was a BITCH to clear outta my shoes
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CHRISTMAS DAY
highly combustible dinner thanks to willy
more festive drinking
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POST CHRISTMAS PRE NEW YR KTVING
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britney wolinsky and charlotte spears
closet ktv lovers
logicmills' prettiest :)
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OMG ITS FINALLY 09!
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:)
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happy(ish)09
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so far so (kinda) good.
cld have been greater but honestly, i'm just gonna make do with what i've been given.
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AND YES SOME KINDA SAMARITAN FOR ONCE ACTUALLY RETURNED MY WALLET TO THE POLICE :)))
after 3 wallets, 6 phones and a camera, its abt damn bloody time someone had the common decency to do so ok. tsktsk so many selfish singaporeans out there. so much for gracious society blahblahblahnonsense.
hopefully ill get the number of the kind samaritan so that i can reward such goodness for he/she has restored my faith in this morally corrupt world :)
only problem is its at some police post at sengkang -.- but yay for kind hearted ppl who are willing to gimme a lift tho.
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i lost the wallet in 08, and got it back in 09. a very excellent indicator for what sorta yr this'll be if you ask me :)
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