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i realise i usually only blog to whine and mope.

no wonder everyone thinks im depressed. hurhur.

but nonetheless, im back, and yes, to whine.

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my week has been mad, worked 9h on mon, 20h on tues and 13h on wed and thurs. tonight is gonne be another 13h with a possiblity of extending another 8hours dependent on my mood and energy level. BUTTTTT i scared. cos i got my first major event tmr at 7.30am, the BMW M event :)) awesomeeeee. maybe if i work hard enough they'll gimme a car.

totally nth to do now tho, bored out of my skull and boss is directly behind me having a meeting so trying to be all discreety in typing and blocky of my computer screen. my job suddenly seems to involve nth but waiting for people to get back to me. murghhhh.

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and my love life............. rarrrr.

annoying and confusing.

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ok back to pretending to do work.

sleepyyyyyyy :(

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im at my desk bored out of my skull, randomly looking for people on msn to msg.

15min more till im outward boundddddddd.

i keep asking my boss for work (in an attempt to look productive and indispensible) but she keeps telling me i've done enough in one day (meaning im awesomely productive and indispensible? maybe :))

was an hour late (yes on my first day stop gasping and shaking your head), but my friend who was sup to fetch me took the blame cos he was the one who overslept. too nice.

and honestly, if everyday is gonna be like this, i really dont mind work life.

time practically flew past on red bulled wings.

yay 13 more mins to dinner and to start my quest for less chui shoes :)

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SCREW YOU ASSHOLES WHO'VE BEEN VOODOO DOLLING ME :D
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ive been getting alot of concerned comments abt why im so emo and angsty, so im here to clarify things:
IM ALL GOOD YA'LL!
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i got the job ive always wanted, with enough glamorous (hahahaha) sidejobs to keep me financially afloat, a possibility of a light at the end of the tunnel with regards to my love life (secret secret :)), AND IM MOVING OUT OF THIS SHITHOLE THEY CALL A HSE IN 2 WEEKS! woohoo. no more parents and finally, a hse that is less that $5 cab ride away from town.
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so yes, im happy.
told you i'd get the fucking last laugh rite.
HAH FUCKING HAH :))
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ANNOYYYYYYYYYYYYEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
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ok like uber super fucking irritated.
honestly.
i miss being attached simply cos being single makes everyone and everything so damn ass fucking complicated.
want to be your good friend also, as long as you have a schlong, kena we have smth going on/im loose/hes slutty etc.
best part is if i acted the exact same way if i were attached, ppl wld think im being friendly SO HOW COME IT DOESNT APPLY WHEN IM SINGLE?!
im gonna stop going out and meeting guys.
no even better, im gonna turn butch.
then ppl will just think im being brotherly.
i swear to god, im this close to paying someone to be my fucking bf.
i miss being invisible.
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AND STOP FUCKING ASKING ME TO LIE FOR YOU PLEASE!
if i dont need to cover my ass, why do you keep trying to do so COS YOURE TRYING TO PROTECT ME?!
then when we end up telling different stories, it makes me look damn bad.
KINDA BACKFIRES ON ME RITE.
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aiyah angsty like fuck lah honestly.
and now i have to go settle some political bullshit which i unintentionally got myself mixed into.
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I NEED A GODDAMN BF PLEASE.
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WTF
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im embroiled in another he said she said web of lies and excuses.
annoyed, but thank god i dont really like these ppl to begin with.
they can hate my pert little ass for all i care cos theyre the ones who twisted my words and im better than that.
im better than showdowns, confrontations and namecalling.
i cant give a flying rats ass :)
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btw PINEAPPLE WHATS YOUR MSN? haha random i know. hope youre healing ok.
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OVERWHELMED
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i used to mope im too damn free.
now, im moping that im too busy.
honestly, wtf.
in the period of 1 week, i went from hoping that each day would just end at 12hours to needing a day to be 48hours long.
i just got offered a full time job which will incl weekends, doing events for the like of bmw, canon and f1.
i just got offered a full time position for (higher paid) dealing on mon, wed, fri and sat nites.
i have already committed myself to (lower pair) dealing somewhere else on tue, fri and sat nites.
i have already committed myself to a pr position, tue, thurs and fri nites.
i have already committed myself to 5 students for tuition. and its their o levels so i cant drop them.
and i have that clothes venture w sarah.
on one hand, the 3 jobs with absolutely no future has the greatest money making potential.
and the full time job has probably the most future but least money making potential.
and tuition, well, im just committed cos im awesome like that.
and the clothes thing makes me pittance but i'd do it simply cos its sarah.
so i donno.
im just wondering how many hours of sleep i can survive on everyday till sep.
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i spent the last 12hours playing 20/40 mj. i won barely enough to cover my cab fare home. fucking student rate. i miss my 30/60half rates.

the last few days have been pretty mad as well. from fri to sunday, in 60hours, i slept for 3hours and was worked 36hours.

highlights of the weekend included my $80 all in hand with paul which i swiftly lost, learning to deal for omaha, and some job related nonsense.
and danny :) so cute. hurhur.
(if you manage to read this, congrats, means you found my blog, i added this just for you lor.)

i went home on sunday nite exhausted as hell, only to have my friend call me and bug me to go cuscaden, of which i conveniently replied, "ill only go drink if you come pick me up lor." lo and behold, 20min later, just as my head hit the pillow, i recieved a call from them "eh, we're outside your hse, come out now." i didnt have much choice so we ended up at the siglap coffee shop playing all sorta retarded card games and being ah pekish and drinking tiger.

and that was my weekend.

and i had fun.

i love my jobs to bits, whjich is seriously awesome cos i actually get paid to have fun. haha and yes, partially blogging so i can gloat abt the fact that idont have a full time job :))

but total lack of sleep at this point of time so no energy to make this post exciting. just trying to do smth to pass time as nick makes panckaes for breakfast.

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