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they were launching this car.
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and i was sup to be there as a GUEST.
but ended up helping out at registration for free.
for 4hours.
in 6inch heels.
FOR FREE.
RARRRRRRRRR.
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with stacy- apparently we look alike.
sigh to be 21 again (and have good skin and supre long legs... not that i've ever had any of them)
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my registration girls.
procon! .
with the boss.
think i look better as a silhouette
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hohoho morning after.
OD-ed on champagne and woke up to find myself in a strange hotel room.
apparently i fell aslp and everyone else decided to leave at 4am but without me so i cld complete the checkout procedures at 12pm the next morning.
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most expensive bottle of water ever. $11.70 for 0.5litres.
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and heres just a pic that i like.
not used to looking this innocent hahahaha.
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thats all.
and i just burnt my tongue drinking herbal chicken soup :(
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boo i think i've been conned.
apparently this pic is taken by a 5mp camera.STUPID CAMERA PHONE TECHNOLOGY.
but is ok lah as long as its a nokia, i will forgive and embrace bcos nokia is the god of phones.
and they have big squishy comfy buttons to press! :)
(ok and fine, admittedly just wanted to show off my chio ass nails)
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and the door just kiap-ed my hand.
bruised.
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OH OH OHHHH AND OMG A PEEPING TOM ACTUALLY STRUCK AT ONE OF THE EVENTS I WAS AT!
DAMN DRAMA.
and the stupid cock, seriously, if you want to commit a crime, do it somewhere where you can quickly blend into the crowd and disappear rite.
this indian fella went to peep at this lady AND LIKE 98% OF THE PEOPLE THERE WERE CHINESE.
hello, you will obviously stick out like a damn sore thumb RITE.
the stupidity of some people astound me.
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ONE YEAR ON
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i just realised its been exactly one year AND I'M STILL ALIVE!
havent thrown myself off any building yet or ODed on alcohol (was damn close to doing so when i stupidly mixed it w panadol tho haha... unintentionally OF COURSE) AND YES I THINK I CAN FINALLY SAY IM OUT OF MY QLC!
was ass fuckingly diff to drag myself outta it but at least i can honestly truly say i think i'm actually happy.
my self worth restored, and passion in life back in place, i'm back to my usual crazy slightly ADD (according to ash&liz) self. havent been called the energizer bunny for YEARS (yes and i take it as a compliment. beggars cant be choosers).
so manymanymanymanymany things to do and not enough time :))))))))
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and yet here i am still playing sims on a sat evening, procrastinating even tho im sup to be at the game in half and hour... and really really wanting to pontang cos someone asked me out for a hot date. rarrrr but cannot. life too complicated as it is.
MUST. STOP. HAVING. ANYTHING. TO. DO. WITH. DICKS.
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to you
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i'm sorry if i misled you.
i finally stopped deceiving myself and blaming you, but instead, put myself in your shoes.
and yes, despite everything that i've said, i can see why you're hurt and why you're choosing to do what you're doing.
i have no idea how to tell you this face to face since you refuse to even look at me, but maybe you'll see this here and realise that i wished things wld have turned out differently.
maybe i wasn't clearer in the beginning, maybe my actions contradicted my words.
but at the end of the day, i know it is my fault.
i'm sorry.
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OMG I KNEW IT.
SURE KENA KARMA AFTER MY HORRIBLE POST YEST.
SLIPPED AND LANDED ON MY PALM AND NOW CAN'T DECIDE IF ITS SPRAINED OR JUST BRUISED BUT WHATEVER IT IS IT HURTS LIKE A MF.
yeah ok time to be a better person.
i hope everyone who is experiencing pain and suffering (even those the assholes that were horrid to me) will feel better soon.
wow i suddenly feel so magnanimous and forgiving, maybe this is how buddha felt.
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Hi, my name Charlotte and I'm...
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1) An alcoholic
2) A workaholic
3) A mj addict
4) A tv junkie
5) A really really bad person*
*new this week!
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im just gonna take my chances and be evil and mean and revel in other ppls pain and suffering for the time being.
oh the sweet sweet taste of vengeance.
if i was just that 2 levels more evil, i'd man up and weed the fuckers out myself and laugh at their faces.
but think thats abit too OTT.
elegant vengeance.
thats what this is about.
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i dont like losing.
when i was and others were winning, i was so seething with hatred that i cld have poisoned even the most cherubic cherubim with my death glares of malicious hatred, for i did truly believe that god was punishing me for all the bad things i've done in my life.
but since now i've managed to convince myself that the big man up there is the ambivalent sort who just sat back and watched his creations run amok for his amusement, i doubt he really gives a crap anymore whether or not i'm (or for that matter, all the war torn countries/starving children/etc other people who have it much worse off than me are) suffering.
things like tsunamis and other assorted natural disasters are a manifestation of MOTHER NATURE, not so much god trying to remind us of his existence.
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so yes, onward from my drunken ramblings, simple point is that i believe in karma.
what goes around comes around.
with every action is an opposite and equal reaction.
simple physics.
so i feel it is justifiable to be delighted at other peoples pain-
esp those who try to take smth that wasn't theirs and it was taken away from them in the end,
and those who fucked up and realised it.
thats the worst me thinks.
knowing that you made a mistake.
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am not even sure whats the point of this entire post since it just proves to myself and everyone else that i'm a terrible person.
but i have a fucking horrid headache so this is just my way of consoling myself.
THAT OTHER PPL ARE SUFFERING MORE THAN ME.
AND THAT I WIN.
MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
SUCK SHIT LOSERS.
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ps: mmmm but cannot lay it down leh, still feel i need to get back at them.
see its ppl like me that causes all these stupid battles and world wars cos out pride is wounded.
MUST. BE. BETTER. PERSON.
after i revel abit more in my victory though :)
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MY WEEKEND
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SCREW YOU FOR NOT TELLING ME AND GETTING ANGRY WITH ME COS I DIDNT KNOW.
donno how long you're going to stay angry w me for, but till then, shall not speak to you.
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halloween was good- i worked through it.
had another working weekend at barclays, and will have another one this week for another bmw roadshow at millenia.
which makes it again, 19 days straight technically going without break.
woohoo.
have decided from now onwards, am going to make the photog take photos for me at events cos am too lazy to do it myself. and plus his cam quality is so much better than mine. and so i'll actually look like i have a life.
like this one here-
a really awesome photo from some charity golf event where our v own beloved mm (*edit SM) goh was a participant. and he gave us food cos he said we look hungry. go pap!
back to werkz.
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